okie... nv realise that i didn't update my blog for 2 days liao... haiz... actually these 2 days.... nth much happened.... though hafing some thoughts and juz finding out why MELISSA LOOKS SO FAMILIAR!!! i finally answered an 8 months old qn.... no wonder!!! she looks like stef sun!!! suck it!! u can see the resemblence somewhere.... hahaa... wadeva... hahaa... and then erm.... friday... did practically nth.... that's what u do when u're not well... for some... and sat.... my first saturday that suck was ystd.... haiz... no training... i suffered from withdrawal syndrome lor..... okie... and i went to PP with mum... then its like... i told my mum... why are there so many TALL gers today... and they are TALL ... they made mi feel short... or maybe i've always been short someway.... hahaa.... then... sae trena and her family lor... then tok to her for awhile... that's all.... then went to the wine fair at the atrium... mum forced mi to drink.... siao ah!!! hahaa.... i cannot drink.... then after that... like went to eat.... then... its saturday... typical youth service day rite? all the FCBCs were like surrounding us... haiz... hahaa... okie... enuff... haben even reach the main pt and i'm toking all the crap... hahaa.....
okie the main pt is here.... today... is THE DAY!!... friendly match against NP... okie lor.... the only guy to wear a different wetsuit... suck it!!! hahaa... junior guys each gets to play 1.5 games... hahaa... another suck it!!! hahaa.. .why? dun ask why.... of all the 10... i haf to play with a big fat pig.... suck it!!! rite??!!.... so.... its like i so wanna scold him lor... i dunno wad he's doing lor.... his keeping sucks.... his assist sucks.... his passing sucks.... and i dunno wad he's doing outside.... suntanning issit??!!! haiz.... forget abt it man..... anyway... i noe... i did not play well lah.... did not get hold of my opportunities.... always let it slip pass.... juz bcuz i nv shout?? but anyway.... i nv have opportunities to get hold on.... i nv noe wad is opportunities.... rite?... hahaa....well.... today i nv score lah... that sucks lah... this shows my worth liao.... i suck okie.... the seniors agree okie.... anyway... at least its probably becuz i nv come training?
... hahaa... chim rite? aiyoh.... u bother noe meh? hahaa.... then tekkan ah pek lah... they bot the bikini cake for him... hahaa... then bot spray oso... then all turn green white yellow... hahaa... that one nvm... can wash.... the cake is the worst... hahaa... the red coloring cannot wash off one.... hahaa... we tried washing off the face cannot then got red patches.... hahaa... then we went eat and pool... then go home liao lor.... tired... hahaa....
well... there's something... its betta that when u noe it.... and when u noe that letting others noe that u noe is a BAD idea.... best is to shut up.... fine if others noes abt it... but always act as if u dunno.... and then... next step... when OBVIOUSLY when u are at the losing end... it would be better to COMPROMISE.....
well... now... i choose to compromise....
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7:23 AM
Thursday, October 28, 2004
okie.... ystd i forgot to blog.... cuz tired lah... so blogging now lor.....
yesterday...
so bored!! wake up early in the morning juz to go to skool for the revision lecture.... haiz... then go there... do nth... juz to go thru the stupid paper ans.... suck rite?? then after that went to TM find da jie... ask her pei wo eat lunch... hahaa... but she still cannot go eat... so i ask her pei wo dinner later.... then i went home awhile lor.... then go back TM... earlier than asked to... .cuz da jie hungry liao... went food court eat.... after eating... actually wanna go toys r us go find alison.... but dun wan lah... scared she buzy.... cuz haloween mah.... hahaa... alot of ppl outside toys r us.... then i bypass the idea... move onto spotlight.... thinking that adeline and eileen are the free ones!! went there.... 15% off storewide!! so they're damn damn busy.... haiz... so cannot tok to them lor... hahaa... and alison wasn't busy ystd.... hahaa.... anyway.... went to kovan ystd.... saw MELISSA on the bus there.... she didn't rmb mi though.... that was good actually.... then on the way back... this is betta.... saw lucas.... haha.... that guy like shocked.... then he damn sad...cuz he has to retained.... he considering to go TP or stay..... i ask him to come TP lor.... fun and more relax.... but he dun wan lah... he decide to stay liao.... aiya... the TP gate is always open for u!!! hahaa.... had cell ystd.... so tired.... slept early ystd... that's why no blogging....
today...
wake up so damn late today... to find 5 missed calls and 2 msgs.... anyway... did not bother to call back.... and one was from soka one.... i so freak out lor.... they still dun let mi off....haiz.... then i went online... no one online lor!! haiz... i was damn sian today.... went online to find this strange fren request... seriously its someone i dunno lor.... i really dunno her lor.... then she oso added mi in msn lor.... then see see see.... she's from soka one!!!.... ahh!!! wad the!! eh... come on!!! i'm not from soka... dun add mi... and i dun wanna noe u.... thank u... i'm not desperately finding for a ger!!.... buayaing is my past life.... i dun now~... and unless i sae you're my sista.... u're not my sista... okie!! then liddat lor.... watched idol and ren wo au you today..... well... idol did my fav genre today... i should sae.... chris and oli suck.... daphne luckily chose a correct genre.... erm... taufik and leandra did fairly well.... sly?... .well.... though that was one of my gaga song.... and its so nice.... he did not do it in the right genre... making the song sounds weak.... well... i should sae.... he's flexible enuff... to do it in his own personality.... very well done.... wad an idol should do lah.... then... erm.... FIONA XIE CANNOT ACT.... I SWEAR!!! no one cries liddat!!! okie!!! hahaa.... i'll end off here lah... too tired liao... hahaa... slept the whole day liao... still tired.... becoming lan zhu liao... hahaa.....
& our love goes round and round;
6:44 AM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
today.... nth much.... good thing there's no " THE REASON" !!!!! hahaa... okie.... morning was a bore.... afternoon was alright.... then evening went for training... but suck... got caught by andrew.... cannot go into water.... sucks rite?? then i negotiate with him the whole time.... at least let mi play sunday friendly match lor... hahaa.... in the end kena fake.... actually he intend to let us play liao.... but see mi there like wanna cry wanna cry.... then i sae... if dun let mi play i'll cry.... then he there cry lor cry lor,.... nv see b4 a guy cry..... sucker!!... hahaa.... slacker's coach....
then today.... okie lor... at least i get to see how the team actually play.... can i like review abit? sorry... but from a spectator view lor....okie... the junior guy team... well.... communication is still 0%.... really.... muz build up on interaction.... erm.... well defence is too behind.... it like u're align to the goalie instead of the centre man.... erm.... driving still lagging.... cuz no determination.... no confidence..... wad else?.... others okie lor.... can see some ppl passing improve.... good job for those.... okie.... erm... that's all lor.... but... erm.... gers.... they indeed did alot alot betta.... so we muz buck up.... let do it together okie?... hahaa
next hor... is... erm.... wish list can?....hahaa
WISHLIST:
-Converse limited edition chuck taylor™ denim ankle shoes
-Mp3 player... prob the BenQ jukebox?... hahaa
-new clothes... jeans...since i inched down 2 inches!!
-the new ripcurl bag.... the very very cool one? with a waterproof sack in it!!!
-a new wetsuit... prob long sleeve.... billabong??
-a new cross pendant...
-new thongs.... ripcurl got new one liao... but aiming for quiksilver...haa
-a treat for the CP ppl... dunno why... feel they deserve one from mi....
-erm..... lastly.... she happy.... i happy.... nvm.....
oh yeah.... not the wishlist is a NEED.... but there's one that i need but i dun want..... i need OFFICE 2004!!! haiz..... stupid com without software... hahaa
& our love goes round and round;
10:32 AM
Monday, October 25, 2004
okie.... today... it seems nth wrong lor.... ya rite!! i woke up to this sian morning.... went to skool to check the schedule.... then after that...i sian so take bus go orchard.... go liao...HMV.... SOME STUPID GUY MUZ ON "THE REASON" UNTIL SO LOUD!!!.....WAD THE!!!@@ then walk walk to find for shoes.... cannot find... next time then go other places buy lor.... then after that.... i took bus back to east side.... no other buses to take but only for 36....LIKE....WAD THE??!!!@@... haiz... no choice.... go there lor... then i bot some food eat on bus.... mouth dry... go there to buy a mango vanilla ice blended.... quite nice... hahaa....then went home.....
went online.... tok to candice for a while she go liao.... then mi sian sian.... sian until wanna slp... slp awhile.... oh downloaded GUNBOUND!!! hahaa....
okie... today.... BIG DISCOVERY.... went thru my family docs today....went saw my mum's memorandum.... and guess wad?? i didn't noe SHE WAS A NETBALLER!!.... like WAD THE??!!.... A NETBALLER??!! MY MUM??!! HUH??!!..... well fine!!! .... hahaa.... anyway.... at least i solved the mystery behind the genes of my bro and mi.... hahaa.... end off today lah.... seemed short.... but u see.... 3 'wad the's lor!!!hahaa
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8:16 AM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
okie... today's sunday.... well... i dunno wad happened... it kinda suck lah... sorry... well... today... wake up to accompany mum for breakfast as usual.... with godsis and bro in law.... went to.... well.... joo chiat! like wad the!!.... its alright that it is joo chiat.... but why.... there's alot of way from bedok to joo chiat lor...the cab dun haf to take that particular road... which passes somewhere..... well.... nvm.... after breakfast.... god bro in law brot us to parkway.... PARKWAY>> like wad the??!! okie... it kinda let mi think of something.... can? and then....AGAIN!!! that road!! suck it!! okie.... maybe its juz a personal feeling.... well... think others dunno how it feels.... abstract feel.... hahaa....
in parkway... bot alot of stuff la.... well.... nth's wrong rite?.... ya rite.... something's wrong.... ITS TOTALLY WRONG when u happened to hear ' THE REASON' four times in PARKWAY!!! like wad the??!!... hahaa.... anyway... went home after that.... stomachache.... and now doing some enlightening.... after that..... erm.... oh yeah.... i did not sae it ystd.... find it quite amusing.... like.... i haf this wound on my hand now...... and its taking the shape of a heart.... hahaa....
okie... i think nth else rite?.... others.... are like stuff that i myself should noe and some ppl should noe and no one else should.....
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8:52 AM
Saturday, October 23, 2004
i can't believe it.... i really can't believe it.....hahaa... no lah... this line is the GET REAL the show one guy wrote on his blog.... they were saying abt pros and cons of blogging lor...... er.... wadeva....
anyway... its saturday... its supposed to be like my happiest day of my week.... why? why is it so.... depressing... i'm so suay today... okie....i injured myself today... like i have 2 pieces of flesh missing... and yeah... i totally lost my mind and senses today.... I'M LOST!!!
okie... its unlucky enuff to see joce again... haiz... can't believe she has a fringe now.... then erm.... i didn't eat anything... cuz its BK.... hah!! okie... fine... even if 2 weeks is impossible.... i still muz abstain from all these....for the moment... i think its alrdy a habit liao lor....
then went to play pool... its so normal that no one wans to tag with mi.... rite? juz an obnoxious guy who can't play well in pool!! well.... anyway... in the midst... went to find adeline and eileen.... ask sista to accompany mi.... hahaa.... sista meet mei mei... hahaa..... so adeline was like.... erm.... "she older or i older ah?" hahaa... she older than u by few weeks!!... hahaa... went back.... then after that we went starbucks sit sit.....
i rmbed a few moments today.... i was wondering.... well... i cannot rmb any of them now... its juz some crappy stuff anyway.... after everything... we went home lah... took the same bus as her.... i didn't want to.... cuz well.... juz to compromise lah.... but i juz take lor.... cuz got thiam and hazel mah.... so the situation wun be so.... u noe u noe.... after that.... i got off the bus lah.... i sae bye bye.... SHE DIDN'T!!! why!!! i mean.... okie... mi being skeptical probably.... but not that i did not sae bye to her usually.... but i did not make it obvious.... but i did sae bye to u lor.... pls.... okie.... sorry.... my B.F. .... hahaa..... bastard fits.... hahaa....
then.... i hate to sae this lah.... but i can tell.... excuse mi for being such observant.... but.... yeah..... where's all my sisters!!!.... i need to tok!!! how i hope there's someone to listen to mi now.... how i hope.... that time... she will at least listen wad i haf to sae to her..... but.... yeah.... too late...... i think
& our love goes round and round;
8:08 AM
Friday, October 22, 2004
okie.... may seem long since i last update my blog... well... buzi mah.... somemore not feeling well... update for wad.... moreover... i dun wanna update crap.... hahaa.... that's wad i'm doing now... hahaa!!!
well... juz today will do... erm... had gym... well.... did not sleep well last nite...i mean practically did not slp well..... woke up with a cold.... need a blanket to cover mi thru out the morning... till i go out for gym training... went to gym early.... to do something stupid!! haiz... should not have start without them.... do extra sets in the end..... then rush off early... run some errands....
after that... i meet them again lor.... in the afternoon.... watch WHITE CHICKS.... hahaa... its so damn farnie lor..... buden... everyone like keep saeing.... " she not watching with us leh?" .... come on lor.... i noe~ she has to work.... and well.... its watching movie mah.... she can do that at her free time rite?... anyway.... they with their usual teasings....
anyway.... after that.... we went to find allie.... went in... then she was not there... then we kinda start itchy hands lah.... she was behind us.... with a pack of mac.... hahaa... i wonder when's the last time i touched those food.... hahaa... then we started toking lah.... then mei zhen started playing on the 'piano'... hahaa.... i nv knew u can play standard tunes with toy piano... hahaa.... i thot those gads were used to juz cheat little children....hahaaa..... anyway... after that... i rushed home.... juz to find myself suffering from giddy spells and nuasea.... did i get that word correctly?... think not... hahaa.... then....... then liddat lor.....
wad's the use of missing someone.... when u should noe that the someone is not doing the same thing as u.... wad's the use of thinking of her.... when u're the last thing that can ever appear on her mind..... wad's the use of writing.... when she doesn't read the blog anymore.... hahaa.... crappy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
& our love goes round and round;
9:56 AM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
<<<>>>
& our love goes round and round;
8:09 AM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
okie... today... i dunno if today's my day or wad.... haiz... today... i wake up juz to think how's her day at work... she looks tired... haiz... anyway... i'm so forgetful today... one thing to show it... went to meet others at sports hall to play badminton... thot i forgot to bring my fone out with mi... sitting there stoning for a while... decided to go back home TO GET MY HANDPHONE... so i took my ezlink card from my bag... where everything is inside.... i walked a few courts away... b4 turning back to take my keys... without them, i cannot even enter the house... so i turn back... to take my keys...can't find it in the first place... scramble ard... heard it rattling under MY HANDPHONE... i continue to dig for it.... then.... wait!!... my fone's on my hand now.... starks... then i went back to stoning... haiz.... went to training...ran rather slow today... i'm such a slacker.... then first time wear wetsuit... then erm played 2 games today... the gers played 1 today... i was like cheering all the way... hehee... okie... maybe that's too exerggarating... but... yea... she almost score okie !! and yeah... my performance still sucks today... i think i cannot get into team liao... haiz... then after training,.. i was like... took out a coin... heads...15.... tails...23.... i flipped... heads... heads... the third one... it was standing upright in btw my hands... i flipped few more times... non end up in my hand... took a break... flip again... heads... heads.... i started to stress lor!! she's so far away... how am i gonna take the same bus as her.... then i tried to follow up.... she's not there liao... i flipped the coin again.... a double heads again.... wad on earth~!! i dunno why the heck i got so much heads lor... haiz... waited for the net bus for 15mins!! haiz... haiz...i wrote so much... so obvious.... but i doubt she will read my blog again...but i will still write something.... that's for her
erm...
i noe.... erm.... u may be shocked by my sudden change in attitude towards u....
cuz i cannot help myself...
from liking you more and more each day.....
your words had made a change in my life... really.... juz a few words....
to make mi realise wad is impt to mi....
yes.... probably... i am not anyone whom u like....
and ppl may sae my chances are slim....
or even negligible....
its diff to accept mi....
but i'm not buying it....
pls consider...
cuz i wan to be the one there to comfort you in your darkest moments...
and to share your joy in your everyday of your life....
cuz i wan every moment of your life to be your happiest...
this i promise you.....
maybe this may not be appropriate.... abd it may sound confusing and bits and pieces.... i dunno anyone wuld understand it
& our love goes round and round;
8:03 AM
Monday, October 11, 2004
okie... had 2 days of crazy fun la... i presume... hahaa.... ystd's was my first jie mei's birthday... went to soeul garden to eat... then was like... quite okie lah... then after that we went to esplanade and bugis to take photos and neoprints.... gave adeline a surprise birthday cake.... went alittle out of plan lah... hehee... but it still went well....plus she enjoys it....
then today... early morning went sentosa with the whole canoe polo lah... for yr 1 only mi and jake went... haiz... then we had alot of cooling fun and burning fun lah.... went to palawan beach... jing po same old him... looking for hotbabes one... as for mi... i promise... i am a changed man... and the test had proven mi... today... she came later... and i nv tok much to her when she come lah... no chances to... then after the whole beachy thing... we went to musical fountain via the monorail... took photos... i finally get to take photos.... with her... thanks anqi!!! hahaa... okie... bring mi back bring mi back... back liao... then we finish watching the fountain show... i come to a conclusion... the show isn't nice by itself.... everything is coloured by the company of enjoyment... your frens... the more the merrier.... and after we finished the show... we took alot of photos... and then almost lose our way... then it was a scrimpy trip back to mainland and onto the train... i got off at her stop to see her home... but she disallow mi to.... i was very very worried.... its so late and its so dark.... i nv wan her to walk that trail back alone again...
u noe... tears from her eyes... really can make my heart cry.... i dun wan any of that to happen again... really.... i wun let any of that to happen anymore.... i swear.... juz let mi....
& our love goes round and round;
9:03 AM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
EXAMS FINALLY FINISH LIAO... today was the last paper... SFP... i finished at ard ... hour and a half? thinking of coming out early... cuz got training... buden... dun wanna be the first to come out... i see ppl go first... then i start going... lucky got da jie to go out with mi... then after a while lame jas come out liao... we discss a while lor... then hor... i rush off for training cuz i saw wee lung... so go together... then after that... training lor.... slack alot liao... after training... others went home... or out lah... then i stayed cuz thot play bowling... but in the end did not bowl lah....
went to food junction for lunch... oh no!! forgot to use my that card again... haiz... then finish eating went to see if go Kbox or Kpool... hahaa... in the end went Kpool cuz Kbox 23 bucks!!! woahlao.... then we played pool for awhile... after that... we went to starbucks... sat there for awhile and chat b4 heading for home.....
now online lor...haiz.... so late liao... haiz... i dunno wad else to sae liao... muz i sae abt her... yea prob i should hahaa... not today.... juz haf to noe i had a shocking day today... hahaa
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10:34 AM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
OKIE~ FINE!! SO MANY OF U NOE LIAO... NO MEANING LIAO....hahaa... seriously... i myself cannot contain the truth to myself... today... actually not much to tok abt... went to study in library...with the usual gang lor.... then... nth much liao lor... liddat lor.... tml going to skool to study.... hap.... MUZ PASS!!!
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8:17 AM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
hahaa.... seriously... i dunno much that i can write abt today.... juz that i put blogging in prior to studying... hahaa... comeon!! i alrdy confirm my seats for 2 sups... haiz...
then i ask candice wad to write on my blog... hahaa... but to no avail... haha... jk jk lah... dun get angry leh... hahaa... okie... i abt.... 2 days nv update liao... cuz... forget... keep studying then forgot... then today got time... update awhile b4 studying... today... went to library to study lah... 'studying' with alison and meizhen... then leo having exam... then i interrupt their studies... alot of times lah... hahaa... haiz... 1 person got it liao... cuz of my conscience cannot resist the denial anymore... i was trying to deny... but i juz can't lor... she was like interrogating then... i was tongue tied.... haiz... nvm... becuz... in the first place... all seems to be like a fantasy.... i mean... dystopic.... haiz... i dun understand why i did not deny juz now....
well... had pasta mania... courtesy of janice's delivery.... hahaa... nice nice... then i went home slightly earlier... cuz watch trendspotting... hahaa...interesting show... i should sae...alrite... that's all for now... need to study liao.... argh!
& our love goes round and round;
7:15 AM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
okie... i 3 days nv update cuz i 3 days nv come online... haiz... now alrdy 3+ and tml got exam!! juz update lah... omg!! i 3 days nv update so will be very very long! that's the bad news~... the good news? well... i forgot most of wad happened... hahaa.. actually wanted to update on fri... but comp down... until today? yeah... then erm... ystd... nth much.. went to study at starbucks after training.... then after that go home liao... then erm... today... oso nth much.... juz liddat lor.... got study lor... but haben study finish.... hehee... die liao...i dun wanna repeat!!! sobz sobz...
well, u see... did i sae anything abt it... no? i sae now lor... no harm at all... cuz no names involved!! hahaa... saved!!... u see... it actually begin a month or so... i actually start to have some interest in her lah... erm... true feelings arise lah... then after that... i feel that it was so impossible for anything to happen btw her and mi... so like... i juz wanna forget her lor... by liking another ger... found it.... so? no use... another impossible case and cannot forget the former.... try the third one.... well... it oso failed... hahaa... come on! i suck.... alot man!!! how can i ever thot of that way man!! and now... i actually still have feelings for the first one lah... but i dun see any chances... i mean.... 0...0%.... or even negative... hahaa... then... instead of really thinking of the third one... i'm thinking of her... i dunno why... i suppose to gif her up... but cannot.... haiz... so mind boggling... haiz... shall focus on my exam first....
& our love goes round and round;
1:12 PM
