Monday, February 28, 2005
when i fell...
i held on to the edge...
hoping that with that edge...
i will be able to stand on it again...
but i held so long...
exhausted...
fruitless....
letting go was an option...
but i tried not to...
i never...
who noes...
the edge itself was crumpling...
the harder i tried to hold onto...
the more the it crumples...
in the end...
the edge fell...
and i fell together with it....
wad is the diff?
btw giving up early...
and felling off in the end....
juz becuz... i wun give up... even when i fell... i fell with wad i was holding on to... cuz... i still like u... as much as the fingers believe in the edge... as much as my feelings hold onto hope....
crap? probably... but feelings? yeah~...
& our love goes round and round;
9:12 AM
Sunday, February 27, 2005
hoho... okie... tat's like freaking long since i updated something on my blog... shall i start off from where i ended the last.....I SHOULD!!... okie... it was openhouse? yeah... openhouse... buzi no time to update blog.. hahaa../. from first day... mi and june got send to bartley... well an alright start for the iguides... but not for the skool guides... inexperience and indecisive.. actually a headache for us... sorry but i need to sae that.... serious stuff mah... the thing ended late and shagged... but it was quite a nice starting for mi that day cuz... ahem... then there's always the 2nd and 3rd day lah... tat's wat hock chuan and chee keen told us lah.. hahaa...
2nd day.. nth much.. still as sucky... mi demoralised... and only can hi-bye... so meaningless... left slightly earlier... oh yeah... we managed to sack the obnoxious security guard at the east gate that day... who didn't give us any security at all... i think~...hahaa...
last day... all the effort into last day!!... hahaa... no more bus guide liao.. so go be welcome party... actually chose por's side... cuz all the others went there liao... they gave a warning tat it will be wintering cold there lah... all thks to por's cold jokes lah.. unlimited okie~... it was nice food... nice space... nice fun... nice everything... it was rather relaxing there... then led a few grps ard... relac rite?... coming to the end of the day... angel actually passed mi a grp of wonderful guys from mayflower lah... quite a fun bunch... and ENTHU... tat's so amazing lor... hahaa... left early... skipped app dinner and jam & hop... anyway... caught up with pug jelly's rehearsal lah... cool~.. i liked tat song lor... hahaa... then erm... actually went to jianhong's hse... bai nian.. hahaa... then went to pasar malam at tamp... after went to sheraton to find my mum... then go home liao lor...
for the whole week... very buzi oso... lots and lots of quizes... and then proj due dates closing... exam oso coming liao... hope i can cope with it lor... nowadays the stomach not feeling well sia... haiz... nvm...think cuz of the mealtime....nvm... tml o level result... its been 1 yr... actually plus one day... they later by 1 day... all the best getting the results~... hahaa
& our love goes round and round;
8:39 AM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
oh ya.... its been a long long long~ time since i'd updated my blog ya... ? prob juz becuz i've been quite hectic and worn out by most of the activities... hmm... but its quite alright... they'll be shortlived... a while only...
well... actually nth much thru the past weeks... i was bz though... with i-guides and stuff... had some rest during cny... it didn't seem like one though... hahaa... nth unique happen during cny... well... went to some of their houses... go 'bai nian'... erm... went river hongbao with the ppl... and then had Vdae... well.... most of us actually enjoyed that day cuz we did something very special and fun... quite memorable....
tml's openhouse liao... after so much preparation... finally...!!! so not to waste our effort... PEOPLE!!! COME TO THE OPENHOUSE!!! JOIN IN!!! its gonna be nice... i hope.... mi and azuan still considering abt our sat program... we'll prob discuss it tml lor....
sorry CP... if i cannot manage to go help our in water adventure.... i wan to but there's still limitations.... cannot... hope u can understand my situation....
& our love goes round and round;
9:52 AM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
erm... its been 2 weeks since i last blogged... counted quite long liao.... hahaa... erm... i had nth much to blogged actually... although things had been happening over the past weeks... well it all only end up that i worn out by all those stuff lah.... well... actually had nth much to sae abt the hols... cuz it sucks... had a camp... noe more ppl... being a GL... fancy having a test during hols... went to a stupid supermarket tour... more trainings... i guide's BOL seminar... i nv had any rest for my hols... everyday i come back to skool... none of the days i was able to go out to relax....
skool term starts... tension and anxiety juz build up volunteerily.... i had been wooried abt failing badly again... after wad happened last sem and how i fared the test to be lah... i was like thinking i would fail like freaking hell bad... when like got the pass/fail results on wed... i almost break down... i almost can't move and almost puke lah... sucks...
fri... i finally found a day to buy all my clothes... bot some thou... i didn't noe cny was approaching fast like hell... how i hope i could take a rest juz b4 cny.... i can't find one.... troubles juz build up in mi sia...
i really need a rest.... maybe not physically... i dun ask much... prob juz mentally... i juz can't think properly... neurons go havoc in my brain lah... that's oso why i nv blog for so long... actually.. i dunno wad to do to correct it... i oso dunno wad words to sae now.... haiz... taking a deep breathe didn't even help man~...
& our love goes round and round;
6:52 PM
