Monday, February 04, 2008
hmm.... nv blog since last sunday.... i guess i'll juz put a very brief blog on it....
last sunday.... hmm wasn't much happening except tt i went to parkway.... start to feel a little bit unwell.... came home to rest for next day work....
so monday morning when i woke up.... i totally cant move!! cuz every nerves in my body was paralyse for a moment.... then i force myself up, change and went to camp.... didn't feel really well the whole trip... can't even hold my stuff properly.... keep dropping it cuz i haf no strength to hold it.... then i started to get scared la.... but i haf no one to tell of my pain.....
then tahan all the way to camp.... attended first day of the PIC training.... hard day.... then i went to find mum in simei... was feeling better by end of the day.... reach simei.... mum still doing pedi.... manage to ask ade to pei me walk walk until mum is done.... then did some shopping b4 going home.... back at home... at night... i start to feel all the trauma and relapse... i felt so cold and terrible all over.... i was in pain!!!! all night i can't stop the chills.... was so cold.... so helpless.... haiz.... suffered all the way till morning.....
then woke up with the same sypmtoms.... agaIN.... had to tow myelf all the way to camp....was so painful.... then after work, went to parkway to get some stuff..... then went home.... and again.... painful painful.... i dunno how to describe.... my feeling at that time.... i dun think anyone will understand.....
wed... thot it would had like subside or wad.... but was still feeling feverish and all.... by right was suppose to go k with ade and eileen.... but cancelled due to sick ppl.....went to CGH after work.... waited till 9 plus 10 before i get to see a doc... haiz.... b4 tt somemore did a wrongful diagnostic tests on the wrong guy with my name.... then they call me... claim tt i did all those bp and blood sugar test.... got everything very high.... like going to die liddat.... then found out its the wrong guy..... then went home..... 11 plus.... went to rest.....
thurs felt better.... after medication and all.... went out with desiree after work.... she no mood to shop so went to watch movie... .27dresses.... then went home.....
fri.... felt alot better.... after work.... went out with david to bugis.... bot some t shirts.... then walk walk see see.... went home after that cuz he wanna catch the 9pm show....
sat and sun nth much happened... juz spring cleaning.....
today.... dun wanna tok abt today.....
haiz....
i juz dun wanna be angry with anybody.... i'm juz shocked on how frens could do things that i thot they wun do lor.... but seriously.... i felt hurt.... u really hurt me this time.... i oso dunno how to trust u le....
but if really if u all dun understand how i feel.... i rather suffer in pain alone.... although she wun noe..... rather than resulting in wad happened now......
& our love goes round and round;
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