Sunday, March 30, 2008
Monday, June 11, 2007
volcano eruption
I'm so tired but I just want to pen down my feelings before I go to bed tonight.
Yep! There's a massive volcano eruption in Blk *** Ang Mo Kio Ave 10 just an hour ago. *sigh*
I'm so sad. =(
2 years ago, I believed I was the most xing fu girl. I had a bf who was there for me, I had anything & everything I wanted. 2 years later, the feeling of being xing fu is gone. I'm no longer happy, flaws start to appear, quarrels begin to surface & everything starts to fall apart for me. I know, at this point of time, nobody can help me pull myself together except for myself. I cant depend on you to remove the scar from my heart because I know you too well.
I'm so sad la. WHY LIDDAT?
I guess this is revenge for ms huin xin yee. =(
Right now, how I wished nothing like all these stupid shit happened. It all started when.........
& then it gradually built up.........
Girlfriends are supposed to be there for their boyfriends. For the past 2years, I admit I was not a good girlfriend. PLUS i wasn't ready to let you face my world. But since a few months ago, I realised my love for you is so deep that I'm so so ready to intro you to everybody I know. To allow everybody to know that there's this special person caring & loving me.
but right now, i dunno. my mind's a blur. my nose is stuck. my eyes hurt, my head aches. my history keeps haunting me & i dunno how to overcome it alone. the nightmare etched on my mind. nothing i do will erase it.
oh good lord, what should i do?
*sigh*
Smile & let go.
I've done this and I'm gonna do it again. Its so hard! =(
Useless me! Piling burden to my bf. hais~
i'm so sad!
=(
=(=(=(this was actually quoted on 11th june 2007... the day i broke her heart dearly and she penned it down... actual story.. on our way home... my mouth only talk abt my best fren... thus had a quarrel over my commitment to her... me putting frens before her... and bring out stories abt being jealous of each other hetro-friendships...and boom... she could not take it anymore... she took out her ring...... tears started flooding her beautiful eyes.. ...wails soring her supposed sweet lustrous voice... ...aches of her fragile heart fills the emotions written on her ever heart-melting face.... the day i broke her heart dearly... i tried comforting her... i start to hug her... the moment i placed her in my once oblivious hard headed embrace... i felt her warmth and her truth which melts through to my heart... from then onwards... i had nv know a second time that i will doubt my love for her.... haiz... till 1 fateful day... persisting on my attitude... i still lost her... 24th august... only kills me to rmb the date...can't take the emptiness anymore...
& our love goes round and round;
10:35 AM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
nth much to blog oso.... only can blog that i'm broke!!! hehee...
okie okie....juz take my day @ vivocity (finally!!!) and day @ CHC lor....
hmm which one first....
easter sunday... went to CHC with david ang choon choon his church easter celebration.... hmm kinda like a sign that i'm suppose to watch it la... hahaaa... after that follow him to have pizza at far east square lor... then after then went to cut hair then go home le....shh... its my birthday... hahaa
tuesday... went vivocity!!! with jenna mei mei... manage to walk ard the whole vivocity hahaa!!! bot a berms... then went to orchard to watch movie.... sky of lovee!!!! finally!! hahaa... so nice lor... but funny thing is the ppl sitting ard us lor... left side is a lesbian couple... diagonally left in front of us is a lonwely lady and worst of all... thhe coouple in front of us?? they're both guys leh...for god'ssake its sky of love and u're taking the couple seat... omg... haiz... was disgusted.... i somemore can confirm after the movie their affair leh... bleah~ er xin~... hahaa...then after that went meridian eat korean food~... nice~.... always my fav!!! hahaa.....
lazy to blog... next time then i blog again... hehee...ciaoz
& our love goes round and round;
11:48 PM
Friday, March 21, 2008
1st thing i wanna do now... the moment i step into the hse juz now is to turn on the comp and log in to blogger juz to blog this...
I WANNA THANK LORD JESUS CHRIST for helping me in times of need like juz now in the last min of GOOD FRIDAY!!!!!... missed the last train.... waiting for the last bus no.7 which doesn't go directly to my hse... procrastinating abt spending another buck on cab.... suddenly a NR7 juz popped out from out of no where?? which goes directly to my hse!!! wow!! hahaa... call tt lucky or wad... juz board the bus la... i still thot i hullucinating or wad... i almost dun dare to board that bus leh... hahaa... stupid rite?? i abit seh seh mah today.... Thank You for wadeva tt juz happen... to "dunno who or wad helped me"... hahaa... may be that's why they call it GOOD FRIDAY.... and yes... i'm sorry for making joke out of good friday going to church... hahaa... i promise i sunday go k... hahaa
other things... blog later la.....
& our love goes round and round;
9:53 AM
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
so long nv blog le... today is wad date?? kinda lost track of the dates oso... hmm... 05.03.08 rite? haiz... ard this time rite? i realise man... its not my time...
well... i oso forgot when was the last time i blogged oso... but didn't had much things happening ard this time oso.... i see... i juz blog abt impt events... well oso some impt impt impt things i think i should not blog abt... becuz i feel i myself noe can le.... i am really happy tt i did tt.... cuz it boosted my morale the next day... and also anxious becuz i took alot of courage to do it....
dot dot dot....
referred back to my last post.... was 26th Feb.... but oso forgot wad happened btw these 2 dates le.... hmm... 27th? work? 28th? work? aiyah... juz assume that i worked all the way till sunday okie?? oh no.... sat i went out with clement jh and bk to watch meet the spartans... then we went to eat @ meridian food court... then after that went to selegie beancurd to eat.... then go home...
sun 02032008
went to work... and why am i blogging my work again? oh... was freaking late... like i woke up at 8? tio 2hrs of extra work... but count myself lucky... cuz mdm is not ard... and why Aji who took over... so lighter sentence... and went home i did wad i wanna do for a long time... i can't deny i feel really good myself.... i noe... it may not be the same thing on the other end of the rope.... abit self decieving.... but at least i tried....
mon 03032008
need to wake up early to travel to old PA.... was one of the nicest place u can imagine a camp to be... well all the old english buildings... so nice... then i was taking the final test to making Singapore's next top PO.... take ippt la... did quite okie.... got silver!! yeah!!! PCG!! here i come!! anyway... i then went to find david ang choon choon lor... he quite like his job lor... good oso lor... had lunch there... then dunno why got this BIG patch of rash on my left hand... faster go buy ice pack put on it.... then went home clean up.... mum wanna go ikea... so i went lor... shun bian go courts which is next door to check on something... anyway... i thing i wanted they dun sell it there anymore... after that went to work.... damn shagged... had neck strains....
close book on 03032008 @ 2400hr
open book on 04032008 @ 0001hr
after work went home.... rest rest rest.... 1 rest word equals to 1hr.... then went to find mum for lunch.... tt's all....
then today got deploy for former ops white chocolate... current ops capture.... worked for like 15 hrs? ya.... doing nth in the first place...then need to travel ard after that....
wad if i manage to find that idiotic mas selamat ah?? promotions?? medal of valor?? good luck?? her attention??.... more than willing to do it man!!
bunch of us were toking abt secom today... deciding if it is a good post to be in... recruitment soon... after much discussion... PCG is still better... so dun think i'll change my mind....
anw.... the leap years was a very nice show!!!! should watch it man!! can't wait to catch sky of love oso.... but got no one to watch it with... haiz.... will think of a way though.... thought of it... this morning got someone told me something... when there's a will, there's a way..... cliche... but sets me thinking...
well not really... cuz i was like occupied like... with her in my mind....
haiz... not really in a nice mood... cant make myself to be in one anw.... so hard... i feel very low... very lost
& our love goes round and round;
6:42 AM
