Sunday, March 30, 2008
Monday, June 11, 2007
volcano eruption
I'm so tired but I just want to pen down my feelings before I go to bed tonight.
Yep! There's a massive volcano eruption in Blk *** Ang Mo Kio Ave 10 just an hour ago. *sigh*
I'm so sad. =(
2 years ago, I believed I was the most xing fu girl. I had a bf who was there for me, I had anything & everything I wanted. 2 years later, the feeling of being xing fu is gone. I'm no longer happy, flaws start to appear, quarrels begin to surface & everything starts to fall apart for me. I know, at this point of time, nobody can help me pull myself together except for myself. I cant depend on you to remove the scar from my heart because I know you too well.
I'm so sad la. WHY LIDDAT?
I guess this is revenge for ms huin xin yee. =(
Right now, how I wished nothing like all these stupid shit happened. It all started when.........
& then it gradually built up.........
Girlfriends are supposed to be there for their boyfriends. For the past 2years, I admit I was not a good girlfriend. PLUS i wasn't ready to let you face my world. But since a few months ago, I realised my love for you is so deep that I'm so so ready to intro you to everybody I know. To allow everybody to know that there's this special person caring & loving me.
but right now, i dunno. my mind's a blur. my nose is stuck. my eyes hurt, my head aches. my history keeps haunting me & i dunno how to overcome it alone. the nightmare etched on my mind. nothing i do will erase it.
oh good lord, what should i do?
*sigh*
Smile & let go.
I've done this and I'm gonna do it again. Its so hard! =(
Useless me! Piling burden to my bf. hais~
i'm so sad!
=(
=(=(=(this was actually quoted on 11th june 2007... the day i broke her heart dearly and she penned it down... actual story.. on our way home... my mouth only talk abt my best fren... thus had a quarrel over my commitment to her... me putting frens before her... and bring out stories abt being jealous of each other hetro-friendships...and boom... she could not take it anymore... she took out her ring...... tears started flooding her beautiful eyes.. ...wails soring her supposed sweet lustrous voice... ...aches of her fragile heart fills the emotions written on her ever heart-melting face.... the day i broke her heart dearly... i tried comforting her... i start to hug her... the moment i placed her in my once oblivious hard headed embrace... i felt her warmth and her truth which melts through to my heart... from then onwards... i had nv know a second time that i will doubt my love for her.... haiz... till 1 fateful day... persisting on my attitude... i still lost her... 24th august... only kills me to rmb the date...can't take the emptiness anymore...
& our love goes round and round;
10:35 AM
