Tuesday, February 03, 2009
3.40am.... cannot slp... tml needa work.... stress....
& our love goes round and round;
11:40 AM
Monday, February 02, 2009
i very long nv blog le.... maybe i should listen to my good fren advice to pen down wad happened on the blog... hmm... after toking to u... i realise my prob not sae only can liao... i realise i got alot alot of prob.... but i dunno who to tell and no one to tell to....
hmm.... i dun really noe how to start... but i only can sae i am really stress lor... prob the stress is so invisible so much so that i chose to deny it.... but putting an humongous weight unto me... i dunno if i am really proud of my work or not.... i can't sae wad is really going to happened to me... but is wad i really looking forward to... on the contrary... all my pride is balance by holistic fear and incurring doubts... i dunno wad is going to happen to me....
next is my studies.... i was so looking forward to my studies... and i finally made it in.... but next challenge is would i be able to cope? would i be able to attend my lesson? would i be able to excel??.... haiz....more to come for my studies....
then friendship....i reserve my comment on this first la....
relationship wise.... long long long story.... but fuck it... guess no one read my blog anw.... hmm... 1 and a half years le.... these 1 and a half years i had nv been happy.... even if i smiled, i laugh... it wasn't anything close to happy.... it will all go back to square one.... i had nv had a nice night for this times.... i am very sad.... since tt day... i really lose everythng...everything.....these times... i tried to forget u... at the same time... was reminded that u are the one that i love and always will... and it awaes turn back to a status quo.... i can accept myself having another person.... which seems so impossible.... i can only sae... i really love you.... but i am not forcing u... u choose....u boss....
"jiu suan wo you le zhen ge shi jie, mei you le ni, ren shen hai you se me yi yi.."
& our love goes round and round;
9:19 AM
